Think wrongly, if you please, but in all cases think for yourself. – Doris Lessing

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Wednesday, November 20, 2013

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I GAVE UP on screenwriting for a couple of years, mainly because PTSD was affecting my experience so much it made for more struggle than enjoyment.

In March of this year I found neurofeedback. Since then I've had about 25 sessions and it has helped tremendously. I'm ready to resume my screenwriting adventures.

I'm restarting today, at the 10K Day for Writers, brainstorming a new screenplay idea.

I did a lot of prep before I got to this moment. Not writing prep but inner prep. First I reconnected with my love of screenwriting. Then I went through a whole process of refining my priorities. What it lead to when all the fat was boiled down was this: it has to be fun.

Because I've had some painful experiences of writing-laced-with-PTSD, I was gun shy. I was actually scared of reengaging with my precious writing dream in case the healing hadn't gone as deep as I thought. So I had to have the right approach. I worked on eliminating everything that might trigger any old stuff.

One thing I eliminated were the voices in my head that tell me how to do it right. Between 2007 and 2011 I read many books and blogs about screenwriting, and sadly that ended up being too much education. Raw passion for my story is where I want to be during the first draft. My rudest raspberries to those voices in my head!

Next thing I eliminated was the Big Precious Idea. I have a little notebook where I jot down screenplay ideas as they come to me. Browsing through it I can see certain ideas I would not want to screw up on; they're too important to me. So I'll save those for later.

Meanwhile, when a frivolous, verging-on-trite idea came to me recently, I recognized it as my ticket to fun.

Today I started brainstorming it and let myself go hog-wild. The idea is no longer trite, it has grown legs, and I'm really excited about it now. BUT. No interfering voices. Every time I catch myself thinking how a studio reader would not approve of some element of my story, I tell them to eff off. This is MY story. If I'm the only one who ever sees it, so be it. I'm not here to "beat" you or pander to you or try to impress you.

(Yep, you guessed it. 500 Ways to Beat the Hollywood Script Reader was one of the books I read.)

So hear ye, hear ye. I'm out to have some writing fun. I can even write bad dialogue if I feel like it.

Roger that!


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